whiny baby tales

Mom and Kelly talked to the Radiation doc again this morning. He has consulted with the surgeon on his findings and together they feel strongly that the Cancer has gone into Dad's bones.

I can't really tell you what this means to me, I just feel numb. Kelly and I talked about Dad in the past tense and the weird thing is that's already how I am feeling. In a way I lost my Dad a few years ago, when the Alzheimer's started. But this, well now it's going to be for real. No more phone calls and jokes. No more "who are you" questions that may be him being silly or him being confused. No more I love you to my Daddy. I hate Cancer.

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