But still! I really wanted to go!!! My Dad had surgery last week and I wanted to be there for his next FOUR doctor appointments. The neurologist, the back surgeon, the bladder surgeon and the latest CT scan to continue to make sure he does NOT have lung cancer! Selfishly I want to be there for ME...I want to hear that he is going to be ok for a while longer in person. I'm ok hearing the news over the phone, my sister is really good about passing all the info along. But I would like to be more involved in his daily care and helping my mom out by cooking and laundry and things like that she isn't able to do so well herself. I worry about my parents getting older and my sister not being able to drop everything and go attend to their needs.
Don't get me wrong, Kelly is awesome at being there for everything my parents need. In fact she is so good with my Dad I know I can't do a tenth of what she does and have the patience she's got. That is one thing she was blessed with whether she knows it or not! But, the child in me screams all the louder as one more thing gets dropped in their laps from yet another medical specialist...They're My Parent's Too! I should be there to help every day too.
My Daddy has a birthday in 5 more days. My oldest son turned 19 yesterday. I love that they have birthdays so close together. This was one year I was hoping to celebrate them both together as it's been many years since we have done that.
Oh well...I'll suck it up and be the grown up right now. I know there will be another chance to go visit again and will just keep hoping it's sooner rather than later.
Labels: bitch and moan, family fun, kiddos, want some whine with that cheese?
